I have always been artsy craftsy, but an artist? Hardly.
My daughters laugh now in remembrance of how I drew
stick figures on their lunch bags.
At age 54 I was dreaming of one day retiring and what that would
look like. Immediately I knew that I would take a painting class....to
hold a brush was the dream. Since I had chosen a career as an online
entrepreneur there really was no retirement in clear view, and no pension as
backup. So dream on, I told myself.
But I wrestled my way through all those negativities and decided to
give myself "permission" to take a 4 week acrylic painting class
through Park and Rec. dept. It was magical from the first moment I dipped
brush into paint, I was transformed by the experience. And with my characteristic
enthusiasm, I thought I better teach myself to draw, knowing that would make me
a better painter. I joined EveryDayMatters yahoogroup and started
painting every day, many times a day. I remember spending entire weekends
just drawing every single model on every single page of my Vanity Fair
magazine. Simple outlines, contour drawings with a micron pen.
Eventually I bought some watercolors and was ecstatic to add color to my little
ink drawings.
One day I received an email from a fellow EDM artist and he
commented that he liked my style! I was over the moon....you mean I even
have a style???? That was a boost to my confidence.
The Love of drawing has stayed with me, and I often employ ink with my gouache paintings. Which leads to....why gouache? I went from acrylic
(too fast-drying and kills brushes), to watercolors (somewhat
fussy and disliked preserving whites), to oils (smelly and messy), to
watersoluble oils (still smelly, but less messy) and then discovered opaque
watercolors...or gouache, and that was LOVE. I now get to employ all my
oil painting techniques with gouache and then I discovered that by waxing my
paintings, I had a nice hard finish that rivaled oil paintings, too, and didn't
require glass to display. People look at my work now and think they are
oils, that thrills me. All the opacity and elegance of oils with the ease and
thrill of watercolor, finished off with that lovely organic wax sheen.
I have declared 2013 My Year of Gouache...which means I intend to
use it exclusively. The more I stay with this media the more it teaches
me. All the media do that as well. Gouache continues to thrill and
inspire me.
So, I'm going to be 60 in September and these past 5+ years since I
took that first painting class have been nothing short of awesome. If the
life we are given can be divided into three acts, my first act was a great
childhood and lots of creativity - though music and theater were my creative
outlet at the time, the second act (my 30s-50s) grueling and difficult -
included schooling (B.A. and M.A.) divorce, single parenting, corporate jog,
lifeohmygoshlife, not much time to create, and now that my third act has begun
I'm creating anew. And I feel like I'm making up for lost time. I'm
on my way to achieve a new late-in-life dream of being a full-time and
self-supporting artist. It is NEVER too late to dream our way into a new
life. Is it easy? Heck no, but no amount of hard work will keep me from
my dream. Meanwhile, I've begun teaching locally and privately and
absolutely love sharing my art process and inspiring others. As well I am
creating tutorials that I will be offering online, too, so stay tuned!
Blessings and Gouache On!
Joanie